o u h g a d i s : May 2012

belated birthday

khamis malam keluar celebrate my another belated birthday.. *guling-giling happy* jam 8 malam, WNJ da sampai dekat baiduri.. terkekek-kekek aku keluar rumah, kelam kabut gile sebab cari wallet tak jumpe sebelum tue.. hehehe~ malam tue we guys g makan dekat area klang.. tak silap tempat tue dekat kuala kuantan, klang.. best sangat sebab tempat makan dia santai and relax.. not too formal.. *wink wink*

lepas makan malam around 10 p.m. we guys gerak balik then suddenly dapat offer untuk g uptown shah alam so aku pun on je la memandangkan awal lagi.. so we guys pun gerak g uptown dekat seksyen 24... ronda-ronda, pusing-pusing and jalan-jalan kejap dekat uptown.. tak shoping apa-apa pun cume beli satu pin tudung gambar bunga kaler putih.

then we guys gerak balik baiduri tapi on de way nak dekat sampai seksyen 2, jumpe plak mcd then pusing round the box, patah balik pergi mcd and drive-thru ice-cream... finally dapat jugak makan ice-cream.. hehehe~ sedap gilos.. #awesome sangat-sangat.. we guys gerak g padang shah alam and makan ice-cream dekat sane.. really #awesome belated birthday celebration...

till next post, see ya...

gadis's birthday

alhamdulillah, last tuesday 22 may aku dengan selamatnya menyambut ulangtahun kelahiran.. **senyum kura-kura** #thankyou facebookers, twitteress, bloggers, family, friends and buat mereka-mereka yang sangat sudi meluangkan masa untuk wish birthday aku.... #bighugs #thankyou jugak buat mereka yang hantar wish dekat fone and yang sewaktu dengannya.. jeng..jeng..jeng.. #thankyou buat mereka yang celebrate birthday aku and #thankyou for all the gifts.. very the super #awesome celebration.. terima kasih atas doa-doa yang kalian berikan dan semangat yang disampaikan.. insyallah, aku akan terus berusaha and may Allah bless all of you.. #fightingfighting..

wish aku untuk birthday aku kali ini tak la banyak macam sebelum nie.. lagipun aku sedar akan kemampuan aku and orang sekeliling aku.. #thankyou buat mereka yang berusaha untuk fulfill my wishes.. hehehe.. **super-duper happy** setiap yang kita nak tak mungkin kita akan dapat kesemuanya tapi at least kita berusaha.. **angguk kepala** walaupun orang kata, manusia itu tak sempurna tapi sedar or tak kita mampu melaksanakan walaupun tanpa orang yang menyokong kita.. hidup ini akan lebih bermakna bila kita mula menghargai and mula pandang ke hadapan.. ada beberapa wish yang aku dah delete dari kamus hidup aku and i just hope that if there is meant to me, it will comes back to me soon.. aku dah cukup berharap and berusaha, selebihnya aku berserah pada yang maha esa untuk perjalanan seterusnya.. semoga Allah memberikan yang terbaik untuk aku serta kuatkan hati aku.. sekarang aku hanya ada yang maha esa sebagai tempat aku meluahkan segalanya.. semoga aku terus tabah and kuat untuk mengharungi setiap yang mendatang.. be chill is what i'm doing everyday.. hidup ini hanya sekali so aku akan penuhkan hidup aku dengan perkara-perkara baru and perkara-perkara yang akan buat aku terus happy.. #thankyou kawan cause realize me.. btw, happy birthday...

spontaneous thursday # 20

wordless wednesday # 20

never

never treat some one like they're second best,

never get less than 8 hours of rest,

never tell someone that they mean nothing to you,

never sue someone who doesn't deserve to be sued,

never look in the past when your futures ahead,

never check some one's pulse,

and still mistake them for dead...

never drink soda when you have plain water,

never say that you don't care when you did,

never trust anyone who isn't yourself,

never push photos to the back of the shelf,

and never believe that you can't measure up...

never think it's empty when it's a full cup,

never act selfish just when your mother's around,

never expect for help when you're on the ground,

and if there is anything you should never do,

is pretend you don't like him when you love everything he do...

never regrets

sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are and or who you want to become... you never know who these people may be but when you lock your eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way... sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first but in reflection you will find that without overcoming these obstacles, you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or even the heart... everything happens for reason and nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck... illness, injury, sick, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of our soul... without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere... it would be safe and comfortable but dull, not attractive, colorless and utterly pointless... the people that you meet can affect your life, your success and downfalls you experience will help to create who you are and who you will become even the bad experiences are learned from... in fact, they are the most poignant ones... if someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart... if someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to many things... make everyday count, appreciate every moment and take from those moments as much as you could because you may never be able to experience it again... talk to people that you have never talked to before and actually listen... let yourself fall in love again, break free and set your sights high... hold your head up because you have every right too... tell yourself that you are a great individual and believe in yourself... if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you... you can make your life anything as your wish..... create your own life, go out and live it with absolutely NO REGRETS... most importantly, if you love someone tell him because you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store... learn a lesson in life in every day you live... tomorrow might never come...

learn

i've learned that we don't have to change friends,

if we understand that friends change...

i've learned that something that you do in an instant,

can give you heartache for life...

i've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words,

it may be that last time you see them...

i've learned that we are responsiable for what we do,

no matter how we feel...

i've learned that either you control your attitude,

or it controls you...

i've learned that my best friend and i can do anything or nothing,

and still have a good time...

i've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down,

will be the one who helps you get up...

i've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry,

but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel...

i've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them too,

doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have...

i've learned that maturity has more to do,

with what types of expirences you've had and what you learned from them,

and less to do with how many years you have lived...

i've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others,

but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself...

i've learned that just because two people argue,

doesn't mean they don't love each other,

and just because they don't argue,

it doesn't mean they do love each other...

i've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secrect,

it may change you life forever...

i've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life,

are taken from you too soon...

i've learned that you can't make someone love you,

all you can do is be someone who can be loved,

and the rest is up to them...

i've learned that no matter how much i care,

some people just don't care back...

i've learned that it takes years to build up trust,

and just seconds to destroy it...

i've learned that it's not what you have in life,

but who you have that counts...

i've learned that you can keep going,

long after you think you can't...

i've learned that their are people who love you dearly,

but just don't know how to show it...

i've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give,

a friend cries out and you find the srenght to help...

i've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives,

but we are responsiable for who we become...

15 things

15 things you probably never knew or thought about....

1. at least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you...
2. at least fifteen people in this world love you in some way...
3. the only reason anyones would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you...
4. a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you...
5. every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep...
6. you mean the world to someone...
7. if not for you, someone may not be living...
8. you are special and unique...
9. someone that you don't even know exists loves you...
10. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it...
11. when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look... you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. when you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it but if you believe in yourself, probably sooner or later, you will get it...
13. always remember the compliments you received and forget the rude remarks...
14. always tell soemone how you feel about them... you will feel much better when they know....
15. if you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great...

live your life

as we grow up, we learn that

even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down,

probably will....

you'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts...

you'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them,

and you'll cry because time is flying by....

so take too many pictures,

laugh too much,

forgive freely,

and love like you've never been hurt...

life comes with no guarantees,

no time outs, no second chances...

you just have to live life to the fullest,

tell someone what they mean to you

and tell someone off, speak out,

dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend,

fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt,

and smile until your face hurts...

don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love

and most of all, live in the moment,

because every second you spend angry or upset,

is a second of happiness you can never get back...

spontaneous thursday # 19

there is all the difference in the world

between have something to say

or have to say something...

wordless wednesday # 19

spontaneous thursday # 18

wordless wednesday # 18

tentang ksya

having an #awesome sunday with beautiful nescafe for second round... if my sister (ksya) tao minum nescafe banyak, sure kene cincang sampai lumat... hari tue ksya siap bagi warning kot jangan minum nescafe banyak2.. hahaha.. **sekali sekala kan kakak :)) listen to we are young song while folding my white clothes membuatkan aku rase macam aku nie dah tua sangat... olmoss 22 years i been survive and siapa sangka secepat nie mase berlalu... haruman nescafe yang #awesome really make me feel better for a few seconds... sambil menyeka air mata yang jatuh, aku memulakan cerita TENTANG KSYA

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25 hari lagi before my first sister (ksya) memulakan tugas as a wife... quota adik beradik aku akan berkurang dari 5 menjadi 4, dari ada dua orang kakak tinggal seorang... even though ksya kawen, dye tetap akan jadi kakak aku tapi sedar or tak kami takkan pakai baju yang same pattern, takkan pakai baju yang sama design, takkan pakai baju yang sama kaler and kami takkan eksited untuk pilih tema kaler or design baju untuk ke kenduri, raya, vacation, function or any gathering... setiap tahun zuha's daughter mesti akan sibuk untuk pilih tema kaler, tema make-up, jenis kasut and design baju...

aidilfitri 2010 - kaler baju yang berbeza tapi pattern yang sama

aidilfitri 2009 - pattern, color and design yang serupa

aidilfitri 2008 - different kaler but same design

tak akan eksited membeli hadiah untuk hari raya seperti tahun-tahun sebelum nie... takkan cukup bilangan adik-beradik di pagi hari raya, takkan berebut dapur tatkala mrs.papa menyiapkan dinner or lunch... takkan main tarik rambut and gosip dalam bilik lagi... mrs.papa takkan pening untuk buat kuih raye memandangkan kami suke kuih raya yang berbeza...

takkan ada orang yang ejek aku kuat menangis lagi, xde orang yang akan buat aku jeles, xde yang akan take care aku macam ksya walaupun hakikatnya kami memang tak serasi sejak kecil... masa bersama ksya jugak akan semakin kurang and xde orang nak teman aku pakai heels lagi if attend kenduri... xde lagi orang yang akan sama-sama pakai eyeliner dengan aku because only me and ksya yang gile eyeliner... only both of us suke tangkap gambar same-same, yang suke camera and gile photoshoot... tsk.. tskk... tskkk...

29 may 2009 - takkan ada someone yang sporting like her anymore yang akan membebel and bagi free ceramah kat aku selain my mum and yang akan tarik muke bile ajak kuar then aku antara yang akan tolak.. hehehe~

padang kota, penang, 2009

xkan ada orang yang berebut mr.papa dengan aku... aku selalu cakap, ksya anak kesayangan mr.papa and mr.papa selalu ketawa... mungkinkah senyuman dan ketawa itu akan berkurang tatkala ksya bukan lagi 100% miliknya?? kasih sayang mr.papa yang buat kami rapat walaupun tak serasi.. #crying and xde orang yang akan berebut adik lelaki aku, abang... **sambil meyeka air mata... aku and ksya selalu berebut abang tapi selalunya ksya yang akan dapat.. hehehe~ :)) tapi bile aku bukak balik album lame-lame, gambar aku dengan abang lagi banyak berbanding gambar ksya dengan abang... hehehe~ jangan jeles ksya #facepalm

2011 - ksya, mr.papa and aku at langkawi

suke sangat gambar nie sebab lawak.. hahaha~

abang, aku and ksya at kipsas, pahang, 2011

abang and me, raya 2010

abang and ksya, raya 2010

pantai merdeka, penang 2011

ksya tak pernah berkira dengan aku... belanja aku makan and siap support lagi kadang-kadang.. ingat lagi time aku g johor waktu dye study utm, skudai dulu.. semua perbelanjaan aku dye tanggung.. dari makan hingga la ke duit minyak or duit enjoy.. time tue seminggu kot aku duduk jb.. dah la aku kuat makan tapi dye xpernah halang aku untuk makan... then siap marah lagi if aku amik lauk cikit and buat-buat tak lapa.. hehehe~ bawa aku g karok dengan kawan-kawan dye, g waterfall, g jalan-jalan kat mall and celebrate bessday aku dengan kawan-kawan dye dekat utm.. setiap kali dye datang tengok aku time study dulu or datang visit aku time keje dulu, aku tak pernah keluar duit and semua ksya yang akan bayar... seriusly, dye sangat simple and sangat percaya aku walaupun aku nie tak suke dengar cakap dye.. hahah~ bile aku tak de duit, dye xpernah kedekut bagi aku pinjam duit.. #awesome kan :))

best sangat time nie :))

chepor waterfall

tak payah nak berebut bawa kete lepas nie :))

and siapa sangka, february 6th 2012, my ksya sah bergelar tunang kepada suffian... congratulations sista.. ingat lagi time nak g make-up pagi tue.. aku memang tolak mentah-mentah untuk teman dye g make-up sebab aku akan sedey nanti.. macam-macam alasan aku bagi untuk tidak teman ksya g make-up on that day.. sejujurnya, my heart so sensitive and sangat mudah tersentuh... time ksya tengah make-up tibe-tibe air mata aku jatuh.. terus aku paling muka and mengadap sliding door boutique pengantin tue.. lame aku pandang luar and aku kesat air mata aku... siapa sangka, ksya akan mengatur langkah baru... sista, i'm really happy for you.. bulan december last year, 2011 when ksya cakap dye akan kawen aku terus nangis.. she call me and time tue aku keje dekat pekan... walaupun kami tak rapat tapi aku sedey sangat-sangat... **my ksya more close to kyna and abang.. then dye cakap, "jangan la nangis, kite tetap bole kuar same-same, lepak same-same and aku tetap kakak hang"... sumpa time nie aku nak je cakap, kakak tolong jangan kawen... #crying tapi jodoh ksya dah sampai.. aku sedih sangat sebab persiapan kawen die, aku tak tolong ape-ape memandangkan aku dah masuk belajar.. aku harap ksya tak ambil hati lagipun kyna (my second sis) ada and banyak tolong ksya memandangkan kyna keje dekat ipoh :))