february 12, 2011

now bergelar practical student fer dis semester (final sem)

so working at record department since January 3rd, 2011

last week ader keje luar wiff marketing department..

at Muadzam and Chini..

and baru ari nie nak update..

hehhehe~ 

very nice trip 

wiff cik kikin, abg adai, en.musa..

tenkiu people  ;))

here some photos to share

all de pictures credit to cik kikin

** tenkiu yea cik kikin fer de pictures.. very nice  ;))

tenkiu sya razali

tenkiu to sya razali kerana mengTAG si gadyz..

lama tak buat bende alah nie...  ;))

Syarat-syarat untuk sertai GA ini :

1. Mesti ada blog

2. Follow dua blog penganjur GA ini, Pinky Momma & Pinky Momma contest blog

3. Letak banner kat atas tu dalam entri dan sidebar sekali.

4. Letak satu gambar saja yang pakai sunglass sama ada edit atau pun tidak.

5. Tag dua orang kawan sekurang-kurangnya.

6. Beritahu siapa yang tag anda kat penganjur GA sebab ada hadiah jugak untuk orang yang tag.


Due Date : 19 Mac 2011


fer dis contest
saya telah memilih gambar dbawah  ;))

and now, i will tagged dis contest to you people

hayatul

sarah afiqah

have a nice day  ;))

life

i'm de first person to stick my hand up and admit that i've made some wonderfully, gloriously damn mistakes in relationship... i've desperately hung on to "pathetically stalked" a year or so before i did, dat we neva suited fer anyting more serious than a whirlwind holiday romance... my biggest mistakes were de times i shud be more tender and onest...  being a fool in relationship isn't just part of de deal, it is de deal... i make all colossal, glorious, heart-shredding blunders dat leave me crying at my pillow, little bear and best friend's shoulder... completely stuffing up then dusting myself off and trying again is de only way i learn and grow... instead, somehow tenkiu de weasel i fer cheating and de grateful to de jerk who hurt me badly... sat at de room, singing sad songs... i've found de one... so tenkiu you people wiff all my broken heart...

strong

a playlist running on my lappy... de  music catch up my heart and soul.. i still feel de pain inside of myself.. de way of us not like before.. time passing through makes me feel jealous fer everyting dat cannot be mine.. many tings have change and me too.. i prefer stand as wat i am today because it teach me how to be strong.. tings makes me worst and exhausted fuckin damn.. walking at de beach makes me feel better wiff closed eyes and feel de world.. de really world of i am.. sound of de air makes  me realize how wonderful my day even though it hurts me deeply much... watching people around, makes me act like a stranger to  myself.. i recover dis and dat, put everyting as an important but it seem hard to see.. i can feel each drops of my tears, it is full of story.. you people can only say but to understand, just only me.. give me a clue so dat i will get de steps to move on... give me de strength and  i will answering wiff no doubt wen everybody questioning... and i start feel de big hug of tired...

today

raining outside like my heart and it goes same way wiff same tone... it happen unpredicted and it come wiff unwelcome invitation... i remember dat fite, it owiss ther and haunted me eva... two-thirty AM until cannot be count, as everyting was slipping rite out of our hands... i'm crying and keep crying, braced myself fer de gudbye ‘cause dat’s all i’ve ever noe... i sit at de back in de room  fer de tears have been made... i do upset and looked back... stand as a loser make me wat i am today, a brand new of me... you people are one of de reason... sincerely from my heart hard to find, its not exist anymore... they laffing wen i fall maybe happy too wen i away..

yes, i'm not gud enaff...  bring big smile to you is not from me and tings dun came easily now..

i do

i do thing previously in backward direction.. i dun run but keep walking in slow motion. i do pretending and i do confusing too.. i'm smiling and crying at de same time.. i do laffing but i keep lying.. watever it is, i'm still standing and looking fer road.. i learn from past, i keep presenting and wondering fer future.. i do things by my own.. i take de risk fer my life so dat u cud not be de reason anymore.. people say wat supposed of i am wen i got nothing from de existing.. i neva stop even blocking you but i let you go fer de all reason.. i give everything you want and i dun expect fer return.. i keep searching wat de hell of i am fer not being as gud as you.. everything happen fer reason and i trust it.. de music keep playing.. de playlist still running.. 

single lady

its all about me.. come from myself.. it HURT ME so much wen i can't cope myself in de rite position.. people say wat de stupid i am but people neva noe wat de heart says and wat de feeling is all about.. i'm sori fer myself fer being too bad to you but they just can show up you by saying all words dat may stuck my head each seconds in my day.. de changes happen fer de spirit they give to you but not me.. wat de hell of myself wen i feel they much better than me and they get more attention than myself.. i'm shouting to my heart dat i can get out from all dis messy but i realize how it hurt me fuckin much wen I'M NOTHING without you.. PRETENDING doesn't owiss makes me happy but i keep wondering wat de reasons of all dis.. some things i dun show off fer reasons because de better still in you..  people shout to me: HEY SINGLE LADY, BE STRONG!!!  and i just smiling and laffing to them.. wat de stupid damn of myself wen i noe i can't go through all dis even though i'm a gud actress.. and de started neva show me de end of dis... de promises dat i hold BURN me.. past thing happen doesn't make me happy at all.. de sad and being de bitch gurl was de big wonderfull day to me wiff no doubt.. i run over here and there, hide myself inside my feeling and walk away wiff all de lies and it doesn't work at all.. i really SORI fer MYSELF.. i let people judge me fer all reason of it so dat people can realize how bad i am as a gurlfrend.. i come fer ONCE and fer sure not twice.. i do mistakes again and over again.. perfection neva promise everything in return.. i push my heart to complete all de things so dat you will fine later.. to my mum, SORI MAMA fer de tears i gave you.. tenkiu fer help me to be better even it is so hard, really hard.. put myself in dis place really exhausted me.. 

wishing having a LUCKY life foreva..